It me again

Hello guys,
Sorry its been a long time since I posted anything, but with all the things I have going on, it is really hard to make time for blogging. Apart from that, it’s my fault I got the brilliant idea of having two blogs. My life is pretty much full, I just started rehearsing for the Voices concert once again. For those of you who don’t know what Voices is, it’s basically a 2 week concert which benefits a number of charities. It is a beautiful experience and I am lucky to take part in it once again and actually have a solo part too. We recently started rehearsing again and i basically have two reversals every week from now until Mid August then 3 rehearsals a week in October. Apart from that, Make-up jobs are really blooming and great opportunities are coming along the way, so I am pretty happy.
Then of course I have to make time for myself and actually relax with friends. But what has unfortunately taken a back seat? Of course is eating healthy and working out. I know same crap different day. But honestly I am so tired from trying to make time for everything that, that I rarely have time to actually relax.

I need to adapt and plan a new workout schedule for myself. I need to start working out again even if only just 3 times a week, I truly let myself go to some extent, I barely have time for myself anymore. However this weekend I plan to organize myself a bit more, do some pampering so I am back to normal and make time for workouts. I need to get up early and workout, even if I sleep late at night, cause I cannot keep using the same excuse over again. NO EXCUSES.

Apart from that I do feel great, I have awesome friends to which I spend nice relaxing weekend with in Gozo. I am making new friends along the way and apart from the long hours at work, I am loving my life. All I have to do is basically try to fit in some workouts, because even if my eating is not the best, being that I am so busy I need to eat a bit more or else I’ll have no energy. Thankfully when I don’t have time to prepare lunch, there is a shop close by, where they do pretty decent wraps and salads. So at least I am sorted when I am too tired to prepare anything. I did have quite an unhealthy weekend at Gozo, but being that I am so busy all week, I barely have time to eat let alone eat unhealthy.

My weight has gone up and down and then up again, but now I am pretty much at the same weight. It is time I worked my butt off and started losing some weight once again. Fingers crossed

XOXO

SJ

This is Not a race

Hello guys,

Recently I realized that Phase 1 is almost over and Phase 2 is almost here. I am no where next to my goal but I still managed to lose some substantial weight and I am happy for that.Today I realized that I should stop pressuring myself to lose a certain amount of weight in a certain time. This is a lifestyle and not a race and honestly the idea of giving myself a huge goal each phase is a little bit too much. Instead I should look at the phases and look at how far I have come rather than how far I still have to go. About 2 years ago I was 20kgs more than I am now. I lost all of this weight very slowly but I lost them and didn’t gain any of that weight back. I could have easily given up and went back to were I was. It is interesting how in these two years, my weight went down rather than up. Which means that I am finally living a healthy lifestyle, the way I should have all my life. It truly shows that this is far more different, than any dieting I’ve done in my whole life that was never a success.

At work me and my colleagues discussed about clothes that we always end up keeping clothes that fit us larger or smaller. Honestly I don’t want to keep any clothes that fit me larger or just don’t fit right. My colleagues, were like “but you can easily gain some weight back and you might actually need them”. That is true, I have no guarantee than I wont gain some weight but if I keep those clothes it will be like accepting the fact that I might fail. HELL NO, I will not give that option, because that is just not an option one should have.  It’s also best not to keep the clothes that fit you larger, so that if I start gaining weight and the clothes wont be fitting right, this will be a sign that I need to cut back the calories and be more fit.

BURN THOSE CLOTHES BURN THEM, AND BY SOME PRETTY NEW ONES 😀

Now back to my phases. As I previously mentioned I will look at them very differently, I will weight myself and show progress pics but I will stop pulling myself down I I don’t succeed losing at much weight. I am still eating healthy, I exercise and try to keep fit, I have bad days but I also have good day. This is my life now, it’s not a short diet or just a phase, it’s my life :D, and I love this life. I feel great, I have more energy and for once in my lifetime, I actually feel that it’s only going to get better.

I will probably see you next wed with some progress pics and my weight in unless something comes to mind that I want to write about hehe. Till then I wish you all a healthy, fun week and weekend and may you live your lives the best way you can

XOXO

SJ

I hate being a woman :/

After a disastrous week, I thought everything was going downhill, but the truth is, it wasn’t my fault I wanted to eat the world. It is all my womanly body parts fault, yes it is that time of the month where we get to be cranky, eat chocolate and have hilarious mood swings.

Well that was a relieve, funnily enough I was a bit worried that It was just normal craving but it was that once in a month crazy cravings. Last month I did pretty well with my diet during that time but this month I just had to have it all. The funny thing about me is that I crave junk food and chocolate a week before and during.

FOOD

My week was a mixture of healthy and unhealthy. There were days I was extremely healthy and there were days I was a mess. To top it all it wasn’t the best of weeks, week was pretty crazy, from the start till the end. Unfortunately I lost a colleague in the company I work for, I wasn’t very close to him as he was quite a reserved guy but he was always very nice to me. Apart from that we were extremely busy at work, on Friday I even had to work overtime because some clients wanted everything right then and there. I was pretty exhausted at the end of the day, and all I wanted to do was eat and sleep.

WORKOUT

Being that I had quite a tough week, I didn’t workout much. The only days I worked out were Saturday and Sunday. On Monday, Thursday and Friday I was exhausted from work and on Tuesday and Wednesday I was in pain and tired. However on Saturday I went to the outdoor gym and worked my butt off, and even finished with a small run. In the evening I dances a little bit so that was another small workout. On Sunday, even though I had sore legs, I still went for a run/walk. It wasn’t the best of runs but better than nothing.

You might be thinking that I will give up or go back to basics, because let’s face it I had a couple of crappy weeks. But I wont, this is just the start and I am learning so much along the way. I am more determined than ever, and the fact that I worked out this weekend after a disastrous week, means that there is still that bit of determination in me. This week I feel pretty optimistic, I am ready to start working hard again, and eat lean.  I will also do a weight in this week, to give you an idea where I’m standing so far.

Wish me luck 😀

XOXO

SJ

From Messy to dicipline

Hey guys,

You might be waiting for a weigh in this week, but the truth is I don’t want to hehe. I know I wont be having great results so I just don’t want to feel bad. The truth is I had a pretty messy week, It’s like I threw all of my hard work in a trash bin. However this is a new week and I want to start it well, I want to keep up with my healthy eating an ignore all the bad food, and exercise a lot.

As I was talking to my sister this week, we both noticed that when new exciting things happen in our life’s which make us pretty busy, the first thing we list out is exercise. It shouldn’t be like that, we have to make it a priority, we need to be healthy, workout and be fit. Recently a lot of things happened in my life, all of which are pretty exciting but my normal routine has changed and it leaves me with no control. I will however get my control back and achieve a certain amount of discipline in my lifestyle.

I’m recently friends with a personal trainer, and I could see how disciplined he is about everything, if it’s the food or training. I wish I could be like that, but hopefully I will. This is just the start, I will get my motivation back in check and do this 😀

All there is left to say is that I will work my butt off this week, and that is my promise to you guys.

XOXO

SJ

 

Week Update: TICK TOCK

Hey guys 🙂

How have you been? My week has been the busiest week ever. There wasn’t a single day in which I didn’t really have nothing to do. However I am overall impressed, that I still managed to eat healthy. What sucks is that I only went running just once this week so far, but I will make up for it on Saturday and Sunday.

Monday

Monday was a pretty good day, I eat healthy and I even went for my run/walk. I also had some good news that the transfer was ready for my car, so I should have my car in no time.

Tuesday

Tuesday was a bad day, I thought my car would be ready from the dealer, but it wasn’t. They were taking a lot to get it done, and it really pissed me off. I also had a very tiring day at work, so as arrived home, I eat and crawled into my comfy bed and watched a movie.

Wednesday

Wednesday was overall an awesome day, I got some good news my car was finally ready :D. We went to get the car and went for a nice round with it, with my brother in-law who is very patient unlike my father hehe. My parking sucked at first but now I am slowly getting used to it.  Then made some quick dinner and got ready for a nice date out. No time for exercise once again though :(.

My new baby

Thursday

Thursday was a good day overall, but still pretty busy. Went to work with my new car for the first time, and then in the evening I went around to run some errands and out for diner with a friend of mine. It was really nice driving, I felt so independent to be able to go anywhere I want, any time I want to. Other than that I was worried about eating, because I always gain weight, not matter what I eat because it doesn’t have enough time for it to get burned. But I was a good girl and funnily enough I didn’t gain, but nor did I lose.

Today

Well today I have a pretty busy day too. After work I have to go straight home, eat and change and get ready to watch the euro-vision finals. Because we wont some free tickets for the show, and the euro-vision in Malta, is quite a big thing. So it will be another day out, which I don’t regret but it get’s a little bit tiring, and unfortunately no time for working out.

As you can see I am pretty busy, but hopefully in a few days it will calm a bit down and I will get to my usual exercise routine. The good thing about this week so far is that I didn’t gain any weight and I got a car, the bad is that I didn’t lose nor exercise. Let’s see what the future brings 🙂

XOXO

SJ

Busy Busy Busy but still healthy :)

Hi guys,

So another week is upon us :), and yes I have been extremely busy at work and with many other things. Even if I had no time to rest, I was still extremely healthy, I didn’t have any chocolate or junk food. It has really become part of me to eat healthy, and I don’t crave junk food anymore.

What unfortunately I haven’t gotten to do yet, is to exercise :(. To be honest I am not 100% well yet, and it is very cold and humid in Malta right now. So I have been avoiding to workout outside in this weather, but I still try to workout at home at least. I really can’t wait for this winter to be over, I would exercise a lot more  for sure.

Overall I am very happy with my life right now, and how I am doing with this weight loss, I am seeing a huge difference, not just physically but also mentally. I have more energy and I don’t need food to feel better or anything, food is just now seen as fuel to give me energy. What I am a little bit worried about is if I succeed to lose an overall of 6-7kgs this month, because of the less of exercise, but I will think very positive :D.

This week I was at work and a small part of my job is to also sell office chairs, and each chair has a maximum weight that it holds. I had this woman which weights 150kgs and we don’t really have a chair with her price budget that hold that much weight. I really felt sorry for this woman but also it helped me remember how much harm a lot of extra weight can cause, having that amount of weight to carry and finding chairs that will actually fit. Thank god I never had that problem, that I didn’t fit in a chair, but I do have that problem to fit in a bus but mostly cause of my height. I truly can understand what this woman is going trough, but of course she has to start believing in herself and love herself and do something about her weight.

I truly know how hard it can be to lose weight unlike some people which think they actually do know how. It takes a lot of time, sacrifice and hard work and no it isn’t easy, it’s tough and it takes a lot of determination. Everyone thinks they know what best for you but they actually have no idea. There are times where I want to kick my healthy freak friend in the butt, because he things he knows how much weight I am able to lose in a really small time frame, when he actually has no idea. It’s a fact Men lose weight more quickly than a Women, so he thinks I should lose as much as he would.

To end this crazy post on a good note, If you really want to lose weight and you need help, I am here for you guys. Sometimes you truly need that person that will encourage you to make a change in your life. Feel free to contact me by email and if there is something in particular that you want to know or just to talk, I will be happy to help. I am not a nutritionist expert or anything, so I will not tell you what to eat or anything, you probably know it already. But I cant help you mentally and guide you, trough this journey

Well that is all for now, I might do a double weight in next week and Monday and even one Saturday which will be the end of the month. Let’s see if I will be able to hit the goal 😀

tc guys

XOXO

SJ

I’m in Control

Hey guys,

How have you been doing? it’s already Thursday :), and I’ve had an overall good week apart from last Tuesday :(. Tuesday was a pretty long, tiring and messy day. I had work as usual and then when to babysit my niece right after at her house. She prepared for me pasta with lentils, lentils is pretty health but the pasta was definitely not and I don’t eat carbs in the evening anymore. Not to mention the bad food and sweets she had around the house, croissants, sponges, an open pannetone, cookies and even a nutella jar. No wonder she finds it hard to lose weight with all that junk around the house.

The same goes to bad food, if you keep bad food in your fridge, you will eat bad food.

It was really hard for me not to stay away from all of this, especially because I was really hungry because of the cold and I had no idea how to turn on her heater. Unfortunately i fell and had a couple of stuff which I shouldn’t have. I really regretted it after, I felt so bad and sad. It is all in my head, I didn’t really need them, but when I saw them they kind of triggered something in my brain that I have to have them.

After Tuesday, everything progressed for the better at least. I been eating healthy and I finally went for a run/walk yesterday. Today I was also a good girl so far, and hopefully tonight I will get to run/walk again.  The best thing about yesterday was that I finally took the time to buy some new sports gear online. Yippie 😀

I needed desperately to buy new sports gear, especially running shoes because the one I have have worn out and they are hurting my feet. I cannot run in the shoes I have right now so I have to wait until I get the new ones. So I bought two running shoes,  one was at a very cheap price the other one was pretty reasonable being a Nike. I also bought a cool new running tracksuit and some very needed sports bras, cause the ones I have give no support at all. Can’t wait to receive them soon too, cause I don’t want to harm my back because of the old one I have.

I will probably be more excited to workout more once I get them too 🙂 do you feel like that when you buy new sports gear ?.

XOXO

SJ

2014 be good to me :)

Hey guys,

So Phase 1 just started and I am doing great so far :D. It been an almost week since I started I am simply loving it right now. My family are finally on this journey with me and it has been awesome. I have been coming home to delicious new healthy food, prepared by either my dad or my sister.  They are finally making a change in their lifestyle by eating healthy and taking time to prepare yummy food. It has been such a relief to have my family support, it wasn’t easy losing weight when everyone around you is eating unhealthy.

My sister has cleared out the fridge, freezer and anywhere we store food, from a lot of junk and unhealthy stuff. We eventually gave them to some relative of ours. We even gave out the left over lasagna which my sis did for New Years day, so that I stop eating unhealthy and start fresh.

Some of my lunches and dinner photos:

The first place is a mixture my sis made, so I have no idea about all of the ingrediants, I know there are veggies and shrimps for sure. The second plate is chicken with curry sauce, mixed peppers and couscous.

I have to admit that I am being a bit hungry in the evening, but that is proof that I used to eat more than I should have. My meal schedule is pretty much as it was before,  Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack and dinner. The only thing I still have to improve upon is my exercise schedule. So far I have only gone last Wednesday on New years day for a walk and Saturday. I am hoping to do more this week, I was planning to wake up early for a power walk but it has been raining, but if it’s all well tonight I go for my walk.Being that it’s been a while since I exercised pretty well, this week I will do a couple of power walks, then next week I will try and incorporate running with the walk.  I will start waking up early to exercise before work, so that after work I have more time for myself and for other things.

More food:

The first is a chicken wrap with my dad made, super yummy. He also used cabbage instead of onions and it tastes great cooked. The second plate is quiona with veggies and chicken, very tasty.

 

 

My favorite dish has to be the Veal I had last Sunday with some veggies on the side, it was delicious. Then a brocolli soup my sis made on new years day, pretty good.

What I am really proud of myself this week is for resisting temptation especially during the weekend, I haven’t eating any junk food or chocolate. It was pretty hard this weekend, because Saturday evening I stayed home watching a movie and I was craving so bad but I didn’t have any. Buy the worst was yesterday, me and my friends went to watch a movie and two of my friends were eating nachos next to me. It was pretty hard to resist not having some myself but I did it, so that’s really good.

Well now I.m hoping for a great week ahead, and I will update you next week and might actually do a half month measuring day. This month I need to lose 6-7kgs in 1 month, it’s a lot, but i’m up for the challenge :D. I am hoping to buy a car in the next few months too so that I can finally join a gym.

That is all for now guys, might post something else this week, but my next one will be next Monday.

Never give up

XOXO

Sarah-Jane

My Resolution/Promises/ Guidelines

Hello guys,

The New Year is almost here and I went back to my old posts and found what my resolution was for this past year:

 life is a learning experience and I do my best to learn from my mistakes and do better. That is why I don’t want to make a resolution (because they do not usually happen), but I want to make a promise to myself that I will do my best to be a better person. I want to loose weight so I become a healthy better and person. I want to stop making excuses and stop giving into my cravings. I want to work hard and be able to succeed in my career but also be a better and happy person overall. Hopefully I will also get my car license and own a car further on. Last but not least I will do my best to be more patient with my parents and help around the house and be a better gf and friend.

Overall I believe I have improved from the past year and little did I know that a lot of things would change from then onward. Especially in the love department, but I am neither disappointed nor sad about it. It wasn’t meant to be, and I am way better off now than I ever was back then. As regards to my weight, I did give it my best considering the things I went trough this year and I am proud of myself for that. It isn’t easy losing weight on your own and I did it.  However last year was just the start of what’s about to happen this year and I have a whole new set of guidelines that I will try to follow.

• Love yourself
• Be good to yourself
• Treat your body like it should be treated. Don’t feed it rubbish
• Exercise and Keep fit, it will eventually reward you back.
• Don’t make excuses, nothing will come out of it.
• Stop drinking more than a few drinks. Have an extra drink on special occasions, it not really worth it, drinking calories. I am sure you can have fun even without a drink.
• Lose the extra weight u need to have healthy body, you don’t need to carry all that weight, burn it.
• Buy a damn Car
• Join a Gym 
• Take Hip hop lessons
• Travel, she this beautiful world we live in.
• Make new experiences and learn from everyone around you
• Do your best to be there, for the ones that love you the most
• Live life to the fullest and don’t have any regrets
• Don’t let anyone think you’re not worth it
• Wear a bikini next Summer and look good in it. 
• Do your best to look beautiful even when u don’t feel like it, because it make you will feel beautiful 
• Make more time for you and for your healthy
• Work had and always be reliable 
• Speak up for your rights don’t let anyone push you around
• Push yourself to be better and do better
• Surround yourself with good positive people. Its not worth it being around negative.
• Don’t settle for anything but greatness
• Be Free

This is pretty much my long list hehe. I might be expecting a lot from myself this year but well I have time, if God is willing :). This year I really want to focus on myself and truly work on myself.  I need this year if need to, even if I need to be single, so that I can truly change myself for the better.

Wish you all the best for this New Year to you and your family

XOXO

SJ

It’s the Season to be healthy

Hey guys,

This Season is really a time for us to think about our year and about our future. It is also a time where all we indulge in delicious food and deserts. However I want this year to be different for me, I don’t want to over do it with food or even sweets. I will actually try to avoid any Christmas delicacies.  The think that I cannot avoid unfortunately is Alcohol, I know that I will eventually drink, its the holidays after all.

So an update about my last 2 weeks. About 2 weeks ago I was having a great week, I was eating healthy, exercising and doing pretty well. Then in the weekend I drank more that usual and we ended up eating very late at night, because as you know alcohol makes everyone hungry at some point. Because of a drunken (I wasn’t really drunk) weekend, I gained weight back again. Then last week I was extremely busy with some events and I didn’t exercise nor eat healthy. I had a rehearsal on Monday then performance on Tuesday and on Tuesday night I ended up at the hospital cause of my Mum. It was the longest night of my life. They thought she had a mini stroke but after long hours of tests, they found out she has Bell’s Palsy, it basically facial paralyses. With treatment and time, she should get back to normal, so that good.

As I was waiting there, I had plenty of time to think and reflect about my life. For one thing I was glad that I haven’t needed to go to the hospital in a long time. I think the last time I had to go for myself was when I was 10 years and hurt my leg. Hopefully I won’t need to in the future, and the only way I can prevent that if by taking care of myself and being healthy.

Unfortunately I didn’t learn much from it the next day because I was hungry for no reason and was eating like I never eat before. I also had my work dinner last Friday and being that it was a buffet, I did eat more than usual but it was fun. It reminded me of last years work dinner which wasn’t so much fun, because of the relationship I was in. I weighed a lot more and didn’t look so great. Next year I shall look more different and hopefully weight a lot less than this year.

I am hoping that in this new year I shall be more disciplined with food and exercise. I hope I won’t lose motivation and keep on going till the end. That is all for now, I will post my new years resolutions promises pretty soon. I believe you should always plan ahead and start motivating yourself slowly, so that it will be easier once you get to it

xoxo

SJ