This months absence was due to the fact that there wasn’t a single good thing happening in my life. Like seriously nothing, all of the things I care/ed about has deteriorated. My job, my health, my car and now even my phone.
You know I am or else i try to be very positive, but no matter how much I tried is still bit me in the ass. Like even my sister admitted that I had like the worst month ever, cause all I would tell her was the crazy shit that happened in my life.
I am not writing for you to pity me or anything like that, like I couldn’t really care less what people though of me, especially now. But there are just days where you just can’t have it all, and life will hit you with a storm after another until it sucks all the life there is in you. I truly understand bitter people more than ever, because they probably went trough all the shit you can imagine, probably even worse than mine.
This month, I went trough a lot of shit at work, some of my colleagues were really mean to me, for their own pleasure of seeing me suffer. I love my job, for me it’s easy and I do it really well, and I love a challenge when designing, however I just cannot take some of the bullshit at work and the long hours I do. I don’t have a life anymore. So I am working really hard for a big change in my life.
Apart from that, I’ve been getting the worst things, from car tickets to broken things and to top it all, someone stole my phone :'(. So yeah, i just cannot but call myself unlucky. I really had no time to breathe, and they all happened a few days apart. I am simply exhausted of feeling like crap all day.
I am hoping that September will be good to me, I just cannot take anymore bad things. I need some good news, just something good in my life that will give me the courage to keep fighting the crazy life. I need to have time to take care of myself and be healthy cause I am truly killing myself right now with bad food and stress.
Fingers crossed, ill be better